The die-hard habit of exploring my own thoughts & mind has never failed to show up in the late hours of lonely night. It is as if a god’s gift to me ever since I was a little boy with which the capability to sense my own mistakes that I have done in the past, be it a second ago or a decades ago. Subsequently, the feeling of guilty started to engulf me. Yet, I’m thankful to this endowment which have helped me to realize myself in a better light. It’s a fault-finder that I never think of so wanting it, not before these few days ago. It all started from the noblest & purest intention to undergo a slightly different lifestyle in uni life-to gain new knowledge & experience through active involvement in various activities. I never realize that I have pour such a considerable amount of commitment in some number of activities, all at one time, each actitivy is given by a little amount. Commitment is dispersed, not converged & increase in intensity, which is a bad sign for me. I might just sink into obscurity & the efforts would go unseen. [Questioning myself: Is it necessary that efforts must be noticed by others? ]
I heard a motivator said before that TIME can be squeezed in needy hour. So I try squeezing it while keeping routine in line. Many unpredictable obstacles encountered me in the process. Some are rather due to lack of self-discipline. FB, I hate u, =) =(. Juggling tasks from time to time, and I started to feel the burden hammering on my head. Ouch! Pain I feel, ache in the heart. I’m immensely despair with the way I deal with the works, both academic & activities. I am not a person who give up easily. I want to know things in a greater depth, even better if manage to go to the root of the knowledge. So, apart from consolidating my basics by revising STPM syllabus(especially Calculus, Algebra & Basic Science Materials), I am on my way doing extensive reading on those subjects. And, Mr.Time is standing against my way, just as it always does. Hopelessly despair, Mr. Time refuses to make compromises…. Then, all of a sudden, I REALIZE one thing, I forgot the gist of this new chapter of life, that is to put it easy. I can’t CONQUER the WHOLE INDIA in a night time! I have to find a balance within myself & choose to accomplish the main tasks according to priority.
Another thing that made me still felt guilty till today, because of a slip of tongue that I made my promise too swift before considering ability to deliver my words, MY OWN WORDS. I don’t really remember that I actually PROMISE my senior that I will help her in a project. But, perhaps that time I were too swift & confident in the conversation that led her to think that I will certainly lend her a hand. Then I use my "gift"-the power of realization, & thus I am really sorry about it. Haiz. Next time, I will be more careful.
So tired. Cough still haven’t recover. Voice distorted. Rain recently. Feel so cold. Tonight, no moon is seen. Though Sun never make His promise that He will rise to the sky, he actually do it the next day we open our eyes. Tommorrow, I know Sun will shines, fulfilling His unspoken promise to mankind. Oh Sun, I adore you so much(particularly the way he delivers unspoken promise)…in the middle of the night. (just wanna 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 before slp) LOL~
I T o U.
I heard a motivator said before that TIME can be squeezed in needy hour. So I try squeezing it while keeping routine in line. Many unpredictable obstacles encountered me in the process. Some are rather due to lack of self-discipline. FB, I hate u, =) =(. Juggling tasks from time to time, and I started to feel the burden hammering on my head. Ouch! Pain I feel, ache in the heart. I’m immensely despair with the way I deal with the works, both academic & activities. I am not a person who give up easily. I want to know things in a greater depth, even better if manage to go to the root of the knowledge. So, apart from consolidating my basics by revising STPM syllabus(especially Calculus, Algebra & Basic Science Materials), I am on my way doing extensive reading on those subjects. And, Mr.Time is standing against my way, just as it always does. Hopelessly despair, Mr. Time refuses to make compromises…. Then, all of a sudden, I REALIZE one thing, I forgot the gist of this new chapter of life, that is to put it easy. I can’t CONQUER the WHOLE INDIA in a night time! I have to find a balance within myself & choose to accomplish the main tasks according to priority.
Another thing that made me still felt guilty till today, because of a slip of tongue that I made my promise too swift before considering ability to deliver my words, MY OWN WORDS. I don’t really remember that I actually PROMISE my senior that I will help her in a project. But, perhaps that time I were too swift & confident in the conversation that led her to think that I will certainly lend her a hand. Then I use my "gift"-the power of realization, & thus I am really sorry about it. Haiz. Next time, I will be more careful.
So tired. Cough still haven’t recover. Voice distorted. Rain recently. Feel so cold. Tonight, no moon is seen. Though Sun never make His promise that He will rise to the sky, he actually do it the next day we open our eyes. Tommorrow, I know Sun will shines, fulfilling His unspoken promise to mankind. Oh Sun, I adore you so much(particularly the way he delivers unspoken promise)…in the middle of the night. (just wanna 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 38 before slp) LOL~
I T o U.
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