My mum questioned me Why am I so busy all the time, even when it's during the holiday. And she continued to ask are these worth it.

My uncle advised me to study seriously and control my involvement in activities.

I agreed with what my mum said, and I am puzzled by why am I so busy even when it was holiday, Why?

I know deep inside my heart that all of these are worth it, but she may not think as how I perceive things.

I knew, it is timely to tell her what I have learnt.

I started to identify my weaknesses in face of challenges and barriers. I refine myself every time I overcome the barriers. I become a better person than the old me from yesterday.

Never once she couldn't feel proud of me, she just unwilling to see her son suffer.

I realized that it was because of my weak ability to conceal my pain well.

As I am very grown accustomed to the phrase "no pain, no gain", so pain has been part and parcel of my life.

And, I also realized that there must be something wrong in my planning or way of doing things. I realized that.

It's just that I need time to figure out what are the causes.



I told my mum that there're even more people who are more busy than me a thousand times, but could still manage to take care of their studies etc.

So, I said, I want to be that kind of person.

Mum stared at me, she was asking do you think what you do all this while are worth it.

This is a crucial question to me. To me, yes, all I have done are worthwhile.

But the answer to her question is what keeps me alive and fight against all odds even when I'm fatigue.

Because giving is the way of life.

Giving is the highest art of living. Giving itself is an art. It is true. The more I give, more people is asking WHY are u doing this? (It simply means why are u giving?) Some people might even compare the proportion of your contribution. But spare this topic for another post.

To the exhausted self, I just want to remind you to live out the true spirit of giving.

I will just need to rest well, I will regain energy, and from energy springs the faith.

Never say Never!