New Year is Coming

New Year is Coming!

I have exams coming too.

AND

I have my exam on my birthday too

New Year 2012

What I see is just another busy year to go


Yesterday night,

After having group study with several coursemates,

They commented on my Uni life has been so hectic and DULL,

They didn't say the wrong thing

That I didn't pay much attention to their friendship

I felt lost for myself

For have been forsaking my good brothers

They even went further by saying that

I must have missed many good girls that were possible with me

I am not sure about the last statement

But I was glad the whole conversation was fun-filled and ended with laughters

My life as their jokes
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A hectic, FULL but just, it's just TOO DULL.

Hmmmmm... I guess I couldn't deny, can I? How I wish I could, you know.

I missed a lot of opportunities to really have fun

Watching cinema, chucking pop corns, ice-skating, shopping, buying girfts for friends, picking presents for brothers, and if I were fortunate enough, to pick present for my endeared one

Wait a minute,

I guess I sound too desperate for THAT THING, aren't I?

Probably it's fate.

Or probably it is all myself thinking that it's still not the time

Talking back about my future events in 2012 is shocking

Except for January 2012, the rest of the months up till June 2012 ARE MARKED RED

I even bought a big planner to jot all the events, things to do down so that I could remember each of the details easily


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My friend's comment struck me yesterday night while on our way back to residential college

He said, "I was like you in my first year, joining a lot of activities, hoping to learn a lot of things throughout the involvement...Then one day, I finally understand, YOU ONLY LIVE YOUR UNI LIFE once for 4 years. There are no turning back."

He added, "Learning is a life-long process, you can learn even after Uni life, when working, you got plenty to learn, worry what? Live your Uni life much more happier, do stupid things together :P just like us, performed break dance in the middle of the road on Christmas..."

My another good friend of mine, talked about balancing uni life with works, studies and play. Well, I don't wish to elaborate his points again.

To make long story SHORT,

I appreciated everyone's concern and comments to me.

I noticed something what they actually talking about,

that is I lack the social grace.

The fact I couldn't go outing, turned them down 1000 times when they invited me for 1000 times to hang out,

because I was BUSY.

It become a popular excuse from me,

and in return, people tag me as BUSY, Mr. Bee, or whatever fancy name that they could possibly thought of

Up to this point,



Sometime, I just felt so disconnected to people around me

I looked back to my team in AIESEC, in Xia Xiang, in many more organizations that I have joined up till my 2nd year,

in quest of finding comforts from my teammates,

But that feeling just wasn't that great

We weren't really CLOSE in short

I knew something went wrong already

But luckily I still have few of them whom I keep them close to me

Yeah, I am not a total failure yet

At least still have few of them that I could pour my heart out


On one occasion,

a girl from my college particularly praised me for my intelligence, good time management skills, etc

Well, I actually sighed behind her

How I wish I could be like her, lead a less hectic, a free life

SMS that has ntg to do with tasks/works,

but rather a sweet caring words,

Or a simple, genuine "Hi" from a friend




I make plan for every semester ever since I "live" in Semester SYSTEM

Not a year plan

I just wish to simplify my life

by simplifying my thinking ( I THINK THIS WOULD BE THE HARDEST OF ALL)

So as to get a balanced equation of life

Back to INNOCENT

Back to baby

Good 9, baby Max.