It all goes back to MARCH, after knowing our SPM results, some were joy and some weren’t. This is the way of life where success & failure crept into & take away the joy of imbibing knowledge. As long you are not too ill to work or too old to walk, people tend to measure your achievements. But, now, that result slip has no effect on one’s emotion or feeling any longer, it’s simply a distant memory that is to be reminisced with great joy by those high flyers and to be slowly forgotten by those who scored badly.
Despite scoring averagely well in SPM, I never stand a chance to go for any interview, no JPA interview, reason? Moral get 3B… Getting at least 2A in Moral, BM & History is the prerequisite to at least having an interview session. Life is not fair, face it! I thought to myself. So, I never put any hope in scholarship. My path was clear, my dear chung ling still welcome me, and my heart still with chung ling, hope F6 faster reopen. I can’t wait to see my old pals. I thought this way that I meant to be in F6. No regret. Life go on with new vision in me. My eye shone again! To fill my time with fruitful activity, I begged my biao Jie who is a head in TAR College Administration Department to find a job in her college. Soon, I were occupied with work as an assistant in her department, and no longer want to recall of the fact that I AM NOT a scholar. At night, after getting back from work, I have started my F6 preparatory works like started to expose myself with the chapters & maths T exercises. This was the cycle of a day in that particular month. Occasionally went out with friends for movies, pooling & RB. Love it! : )
Worked exactly one month later, I resigned as F6 will be re-opened in 2 weeks time. I continued to pick up momentum in study. A week before entering Lower sixth form, I was informed via email that I was shortlisted by Yayasan Telekom Malaysia to participate in its workshop. At that instant, my feeling was a mixture of excitement and reluctance. "Why come at this moment? I don’t need scholarship anymore". Family & relatives encouraged me to have a try. I really have to thank them who prayed so hard on behalf of me so that I could get scholarship to extend my tertiary study. So, I made up mind to JUST go there as an ACTIVE participant and gained the experiences. Ha! Let me shorten da whole process. It was held for 4 days 3 nights in Hulu Langat Selangor, Selangor. Basically, we were tested our general knowledge, current issues revolving our country economy and social and express our point of views toward an issue, strictly in english. At the end, I was selected to join its real interview selection test that was launched in Menara TM, KL. I din get but it was an enriching experience for me. 
One week over, F6 welcomed our arrival. Like the toiled soldiers returning to their castle after years of combacting against the foe. Everyone was like asking the same question, YOU COME BACK TO F6 ah……………………………. As if a mother couldn’t believe her loving son STILL SURVIVE upon the prolonged war and asked in an astonishing tone to reaffirm what she saw in front of her is not of her own hallucination. I choose Physics stream. My class was L6F2. Don’t know it’s a good or bad thing when get to know that my class teacher was my EST teacher. I felt a bit embarassed to meet her eye to eye at first I din get A in EST, second, I used to always sleep or paying scant attention to her teaching. She was our MUET teacher too. When asked who get A1 in their 1119 English, I was the only one in the class…. Never expect that to happen. Now, at least I can get rid of my guiltiness temporarily, ha!
As day melts into week, we started to get along better & better. F6 is different from previous forms. We now have FLOWERS to add the joy of learning. Ha! Mostly come from Union High School. But happy moment never last longer than we suppose it to be. On this most memorable date that marked a difference in my life, 25/5/2009. Students who were aware would remind you that this day is the release of MATRIKULASI 2nd Intake List. Frankly, I have already forgotten about 2nd Intake this paltry matter & even harboured no hope to see the Sun rose from West horizon! My dedicated counsellor teacher, Teacher Ang wanted those who haven’t check their appeal status to have a check in her office. Well, I was particularly cocksure that I won’t get it. Albeit my high confidence and strong will not to get it, these failed to beat God’s plan for me. I got the second intake. Should I go????????????
I have gone through all the dilemma of varied degrees. Knowing that what I decide within the two days struggle would mark a major change in my life, my parents dare not to interfere with my decision which I am about to take, they would only give some comments(it sounds more like encouragement to me) and regarded me as a young adult who know the best decision to take. This is my turning point………….. I fathom a fact that no road is a bad a road. Two roads diverge in a bush, that’s how the philosophic Robert Frost put it this way. After weighing all the advantages both sides offer, I chose Matrik.
Now, I am in KMJ. Will write more on my life over here. Adieu!
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