My feelings, my notions, my aspiration, my pressure, etc, in January!

January is going to end! Good and bad stuffs ahead, awatitng me to conquer or be conquer! My muscles all in pain, excruciating! But it worth, I think so, get 13 in MSSPP merentas desa, can that be considered good? I last year get 5 wor…! Another competition lies ahead, guess should try harder, even though I know it tough. My confidence wane as I am in first class le, under 18, hard game for a runner who is 16!
   School life is imbued with pleasure and pressure! pressure >(greater than) pleasure … School homeworks and assignments are keeping me away from my revision! That’s the chief reason why I hate homework, usually! In form 4, there are many things to learn. Learn smartly, work hardly, that’s my slogan! Many people favour to suggest that learn smartly is synonymous with memorize the content of the book! I revolt! I defy what they said! You dont have to follow the book "blindly". As long one can comprehend the gist of the chapters, one can powered the any and every questions! At this education level, critical thinking is rather important than everything, that’s wat my opinion! Let’s see how critical your mind are, CAN ATOM BE DIVIDED? The thinking process comes precious than the answer you obtained. Have you obtained it?
   But, there were time I astrayed in the middle of striving for knowledge, it is happenning right now too. The longest journey in the world perhaps is the prosecution of knowledge. I faced problems, suddenly felt that I am losing myself, losing inspirations to persuit for knowledge, losing direction how to get the right path of study, feel that I am too "tiny", know for none! Murmuring "A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I …" Thx God, at least I know ABC ko! 1+1 =2, lol! at least I know a few about maths! It sounds folly, but sometimes it helps me to advance the "life span" of confidence!
   My class is so boisterous! OMG! and funny! I was one the greatest "actor" in my 3TA1 class. But now I "retired" lo, becoz sitting in front of teacher, lol! Further more, there are no teachers who offended me nor the class. Everyone feel the same way, "He changed!", nope I am not, if I am, yet, I am changing to a better me. "Don’t trapped your soul in other’s sight", told by a teacher. I remember it for ever, and that how I preserve the original side of me!
 Looking forward for Chinese New Year! Yeah!                                                                                  January fade, February blossom!