Location: Kem Syruz, Machang Bubok, Bkt Mertajam, Penang.
A Little Spark, A Lighted Path
After enduring almost two weeks of boredom, now at least I can see a slight change in the pattern of the activities. "Kontract Kita Janji" was the name of the activity. Here, we have a total of four competing teams, namely Alpha, Bravo, Charlie & Delta.
Each team is obliged to make a contract with the administration. The content of the contract must
be positive & encompasses the guidelines of being a good Wira &
Wirawati. In brief, this contract tried to cultivate a sense of responsibility
in trainees’ heart. I found that such approach is the best way to behave
trainees appropriately as well as avoid them from breaking the rules & regulation
in this camp.
be positive & encompasses the guidelines of being a good Wira &
Wirawati. In brief, this contract tried to cultivate a sense of responsibility
in trainees’ heart. I found that such approach is the best way to behave
trainees appropriately as well as avoid them from breaking the rules & regulation
in this camp.
Teenagers have the tendency to show their best in whatever they
do. They tend to live with your expectation because they hate losing. So,
instead of saying we are tied to the contract we made ourselves, I would rather
say that WE’RE COMPETING TO BE THE BEST, displaying the best sides of our
personalities.
do. They tend to live with your expectation because they hate losing. So,
instead of saying we are tied to the contract we made ourselves, I would rather
say that WE’RE COMPETING TO BE THE BEST, displaying the best sides of our
personalities.
The passion
to make the very first contribution to the team-Charlie was very strong. I immediately
involved myself in the discussion & fervently suggested bunches of ideas.
Though I was fervent to show my competency in the team, I never slandered
others’ abilities. Everything went smooth. We worked together, regardless to our
distinctive races, cultures, beliefs & customs. I continued to play my
role: suggest, discuss, write, write, write… I guess I have deep affection for
writing. Maybe I didn’t fully recover from “Exam” mood. Inspirations flowed as
fast as the water streaming down the hill brook, that I almost couldn’t convey
my writing in line with pace of my thoughts. People trusted me a lot, &
they always seek for my assistance or ideas in their works. I felt proud of my
contribution & I wanted my contribution to be recognized, appreciated &
known. The sense of selfishness was intensifying without realization… Many
things had been settled in just a blink of eye. Now, our team leader (Firdaus,
have been promoted to be Penghulu, Leader of all Team Leaders) was about to
plan who’s going to present the hard works of the team. At the time I received
the words that I was not one of the presenters, I was too furious to think of
the true reason behind his decision. To make the matter worse, Firdaus told me
that the ‘Visi’ part was not in the list, which I had poured a lot of efforts
in it. My first thought was: you stupid Malay, trying to grab the hard work of
others as your own!
to make the very first contribution to the team-Charlie was very strong. I immediately
involved myself in the discussion & fervently suggested bunches of ideas.
Though I was fervent to show my competency in the team, I never slandered
others’ abilities. Everything went smooth. We worked together, regardless to our
distinctive races, cultures, beliefs & customs. I continued to play my
role: suggest, discuss, write, write, write… I guess I have deep affection for
writing. Maybe I didn’t fully recover from “Exam” mood. Inspirations flowed as
fast as the water streaming down the hill brook, that I almost couldn’t convey
my writing in line with pace of my thoughts. People trusted me a lot, &
they always seek for my assistance or ideas in their works. I felt proud of my
contribution & I wanted my contribution to be recognized, appreciated &
known. The sense of selfishness was intensifying without realization… Many
things had been settled in just a blink of eye. Now, our team leader (Firdaus,
have been promoted to be Penghulu, Leader of all Team Leaders) was about to
plan who’s going to present the hard works of the team. At the time I received
the words that I was not one of the presenters, I was too furious to think of
the true reason behind his decision. To make the matter worse, Firdaus told me
that the ‘Visi’ part was not in the list, which I had poured a lot of efforts
in it. My first thought was: you stupid Malay, trying to grab the hard work of
others as your own!
Though I
have the grudge against the decision made, I managed to conceal my feelings
well. No body knows. But, keeping hatred inside my heart was suffering. Eventually,
I seek Firdaus & have a gentleman talk, words from heart, eye to eye, like
what happened on one night, he & I sat down on the sofa in the rest room
& talked until 2.30 a.m… He is an
honest & open-minded Malay man. (We shared our point of views about our country
politics, educational system, etc…Oh boy! Malaysia
would be a better place to live in if Malays own his mentality) I told him what
I felt & what I want. To my astonishment, HE KNEW! My eyes became watery
when he said he was deeply touched by my contribution & he really needs me
in this team to win, in the future. He disclosed the true motive of letting me
to do nothing…According to him, I was responsible for the question & answer
part, for that part really mind-racking. Despite of his explanation, I still
did not satisfy for what he had done. The flame of anger remained unabated. My
rationality was swamped by feelings at that moment.
have the grudge against the decision made, I managed to conceal my feelings
well. No body knows. But, keeping hatred inside my heart was suffering. Eventually,
I seek Firdaus & have a gentleman talk, words from heart, eye to eye, like
what happened on one night, he & I sat down on the sofa in the rest room
& talked until 2.30 a.m… He is an
honest & open-minded Malay man. (We shared our point of views about our country
politics, educational system, etc…Oh boy! Malaysia
would be a better place to live in if Malays own his mentality) I told him what
I felt & what I want. To my astonishment, HE KNEW! My eyes became watery
when he said he was deeply touched by my contribution & he really needs me
in this team to win, in the future. He disclosed the true motive of letting me
to do nothing…According to him, I was responsible for the question & answer
part, for that part really mind-racking. Despite of his explanation, I still
did not satisfy for what he had done. The flame of anger remained unabated. My
rationality was swamped by feelings at that moment.
Until the
night before presentation day, we were making our rehearsal. My name was
called. I approached him & he whispered to me that Wani & I will be
presenting ‘Visi’, & must gear up for Q & A part. OK, at last I was
appeased. I smiled to him.
night before presentation day, we were making our rehearsal. My name was
called. I approached him & he whispered to me that Wani & I will be
presenting ‘Visi’, & must gear up for Q & A part. OK, at last I was
appeased. I smiled to him.
After the presentation had over, we were all pleased by our
own performance. Everyone did better than the rehearsal. I was contented &
exceptionally glad. We’re the only the team that presented ‘Visi’ part &
that really pleased the judge. On the other hand, I felt ashamed of my own
misbehave & my short-sightedness. I misunderstood this ambitious leader. I apologized
to him for my selfishness. “Your contribution is recognized & known by
others, we all know you’re a good member,” He said. But I still felt guilty
every time I recalled this incidence. But I grew up again, & able to see
things in a better light.
own performance. Everyone did better than the rehearsal. I was contented &
exceptionally glad. We’re the only the team that presented ‘Visi’ part &
that really pleased the judge. On the other hand, I felt ashamed of my own
misbehave & my short-sightedness. I misunderstood this ambitious leader. I apologized
to him for my selfishness. “Your contribution is recognized & known by
others, we all know you’re a good member,” He said. But I still felt guilty
every time I recalled this incidence. But I grew up again, & able to see
things in a better light.
Outcome: Success is not belonged to a person. We can only
prosper through unity. I
prosper through unity. I
learnt that a contributor should not seek for
benefits, profits, fame or rewards.
benefits, profits, fame or rewards.
Do
things willingly & people will naturally discovered your efforts. Like an
things willingly & people will naturally discovered your efforts. Like an
English
famous phrase asserts, “We make a living by what we gain, we make a
famous phrase asserts, “We make a living by what we gain, we make a
life
by what we give Besides”.
by what we give Besides”.
We must
always put our ego down if we intend to make more friends in life.
always put our ego down if we intend to make more friends in life.
Never
let your emotion prevails over your rationality. “Too strong a feeling
let your emotion prevails over your rationality. “Too strong a feeling
can
create havoc for reasoning, but overly dispassionate reasoning ability can
create havoc for reasoning, but overly dispassionate reasoning ability can
ruin
the emotional life.” Asserted by Daniel Goleman in his book “Emotional
the emotional life.” Asserted by Daniel Goleman in his book “Emotional
Intelligence”.
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